}:{EverythingI'llNeverBe}:{

    1. My heart is this. I am broken.

      Seek me, call me
      I’ll be waiting

      This distance, this dissolution
      I cling to memories while falling
      Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
      Waking the misery of being without you

      Surrender, I give in
      Another moment is another eternity

      (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
      (I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
      (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I’ll be waiting
      (I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

      You know me, you know me all too well
      My only desire - to bridge our division

      In sorrow I speak your name
      And my voice mirrors my torment

      (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
      (I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
      (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I’ll be waiting
      (I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

      Am I breathing?
      My strength fails me
      Your picture, a bitter memory

      For comfort, for solace
      (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
      (I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
      (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I’ll be waiting
      (I’ll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

    2. dead to me

      Skin
      Skin cells buried in cotton
      Scent and smell lingers
      For days
      Weeks
      After your departure
      Its all I have left
      Of you
      I embrace the sheets
      Refuse to let go of the last
      Organic trace of your existence
      In my world
      Not one or two
      Or twenty
      Of my floods
      Can erase the stain 
      Of our love upon this bed
      And it haunts me
      Lying here
      Wishing for you
      Calling for you
      Reaching for you
      Needing you
      This space
      of our once forever love
      Haunts me 
      and comforts me
      Reminds me 
      and torments me 
      You’re dead to me

    3. There is no such thing as love. There is no such thing as happily ever after. Promises and vows are nothing but secrets and lies. There is no forever. 
I do not believe in souls.
You were such a good actor..i believed it all…with every cell of my being.
Thank you for letting me hold you one last moment. 
I love you.
You win. I’m shattered. 
Shutting down.

      There is no such thing as love. There is no such thing as happily ever after. Promises and vows are nothing but secrets and lies. There is no forever.
      I do not believe in souls.
      You were such a good actor..i believed it all…with every cell of my being.
      Thank you for letting me hold you one last moment.
      I love you.
      You win. I’m shattered.
      Shutting down.

    4. #Depression beyond all things ever known or felt.
#pleasehelpme #prayers #falling

      #Depression beyond all things ever known or felt.
      #pleasehelpme #prayers #falling

    5. Real love is. Real love does mot wax or wane like the moon, or like ocean waves. Real love remembers vows and promises. Real love tries, works, perseveres, never, ever gives up. Real love isn’t influenced by hateful family, trying to drive in dissent and discord. Real love never says I hate you. 
I guess I will never know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of truth.
But I will ALWAYS keep my promise.
I just do not know. I am so beyond.
#crushed #destroyed #foreverwastoolong #depressed #unspoken #prayers #pleasehelpme

      Real love is. Real love does mot wax or wane like the moon, or like ocean waves. Real love remembers vows and promises. Real love tries, works, perseveres, never, ever gives up. Real love isn’t influenced by hateful family, trying to drive in dissent and discord. Real love never says I hate you.
      I guess I will never know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of truth.
      But I will ALWAYS keep my promise.

      I just do not know. I am so beyond.
      #crushed #destroyed #foreverwastoolong #depressed #unspoken #prayers #pleasehelpme

    6. Indescribable. No words for my anguish. Have to be strong. Running out of strong. #worstdaysofmylife #depressed #needahug #prayers #help #ijustcant (at Shands Hospital @ UF)

      Indescribable. No words for my anguish. Have to be strong. Running out of strong. #worstdaysofmylife #depressed #needahug #prayers #help #ijustcant (at Shands Hospital @ UF)

    7. Please. If there is a deity. I need strength. 
#prayers #unspoken #goodthoughts #desperate #help #guidance  (at Shands Hospital @ UF)

      Please. If there is a deity. I need strength.
      #prayers #unspoken #goodthoughts #desperate #help #guidance (at Shands Hospital @ UF)

    8. My First time through on Monster Manor! Whee!  #nintendolife #nintendo3ds #monstermanor #gamergirls #whee  (at Celtic Fox Farm)

      My First time through on Monster Manor! Whee! #nintendolife #nintendo3ds #monstermanor #gamergirls #whee (at Celtic Fox Farm)

    9. My pathetic attempt at doing justice to this gorgeous #deborahlippmann polish I got for my #birthday on my sad short nails. I tried to do a cosmic feel for this #acrosstheuniverse amazingness with a purple matte background. #nails #girly #ineedtogrowmynailsoutandstopbitingthem #somuchstress #nailpolish  (at Celtic Fox Farm)

      My pathetic attempt at doing justice to this gorgeous #deborahlippmann polish I got for my #birthday on my sad short nails. I tried to do a cosmic feel for this #acrosstheuniverse amazingness with a purple matte background. #nails #girly #ineedtogrowmynailsoutandstopbitingthem #somuchstress #nailpolish (at Celtic Fox Farm)

    10. Karou absolutely loves this silly stuffed #rainbow caterpillar. She’s so #adorable. Growing so fast. She will be tall and lean and BIG. #calico #rescued #humanesociety #maddiesfund #tortoiseshell #tortie #catsofinstagram #instakitten #kittens  (at Celtic Fox Farm)

      Karou absolutely loves this silly stuffed #rainbow caterpillar. She’s so #adorable. Growing so fast. She will be tall and lean and BIG. #calico #rescued #humanesociety #maddiesfund #tortoiseshell #tortie #catsofinstagram #instakitten #kittens (at Celtic Fox Farm)

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